Ready to leave now


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I’m not the same person I was when I started Trinity. It feels like forever ago. I had so much hope inside my soul. I got to know every person who lived in Witt Winn and put signs on their doors with TV quotes like the freaking loser I was. I had so many dreams of what I could do here and a lot of it never happened. I’m kind of disappointed, but also I’m not that mad. I’m over it. I’m over this place.

Honesty is really important to me, so let’s be honest. I enjoyed some of my time at Trinity, but I don’t enjoy this anymore. I am so ready to leave. Sure, one day I’ll probably look back and wish I made the most of my time here. I’ll appreciate the people and the things I learned and all of it combined will seem to outweigh how almost everything else conspired to crush my spirits.

If I seem sad or bummed out or whatever, that’s fine, just know I am days away from skating out of here, and I am very happy about that. And honestly, I really wish I was strong enough to keep up with everything I wanted to be and all the people I wanted to be friends with, but I wasn’t. I wasn’t strong enough to do that stuff and get a degree and that’s ok. It’s fine. It’s over. I’m just being honest. I cannot wait to graduate.

So again, Trinity University. I’ll probably thank you for everything one day, eventually. But right now, I just really hate you. And that’s OK. I’m gonna feel what I feel and not force myself to come around. Give me some time and give me a diploma.